alright everything is going good. track is fun yet i'm really sore. wierd considering bball just ended.. oh thats right we were never in shape for bball. alright so anyway i was talking to rachael (who lately i have been having the most awesome conversations with) and we had a conversation that i knew everything she said was true but i just didn't want to believe it. i didn't want to accept the truth. i was in complete denial. like we have been talking about marsha and it hit me that i like everything about her (at least what i know) except for the drinking. i want her to be someone she's not i guess. like everything is good except for that. she's nice, fun, and obviously beautiful but the only thing holding me back is trhis drinking. and i have been contemplating this for a long time and it pisses me off. the only thing i want to do right now is to go to adrew's concert on fri. (at the pit) and have a good tie there. and then go to sappys on saturday and see what comes out of it. if i don't like what i see (and i don't think i will like it) then i'm done and i'm leaving. and thats that. oh and another thing school sux. its not aht its hard i feel like i'm just overloaded with work. oh and janet i'm praying for ya. i hope everything gets beter real soon.